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Heroine.
Your drunken saviour.
I'm inevitably imperfect.
& Just like anyone else, I run away.

Suave El Carpe Diem punya.
and I love my BSF Nani.

this-isyourheroine@live.com

Sweethearts.

These are the loved ones,
Sweethearts


Own up.

Another way to fly.

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Adilah.
Afifah.
Afiq.
♥♥Ain GIRLFRIEND
♥TinyAini.
Alex.

♥♥Along Brother.

Amaaaal.
♥Ameer SUAVE
♥Amilia.
♥Amin.
Assyikin.
Audi Monkbhae.
♥♥Ayu SISTER
♥Azhar LOVES

BinBin.
♥CS LOVES
Changlin.
Chee Xin.

Din.
♥Dyana LOVES

♥♥Eerah CINTA
Eerah.
♥Elmo.

♥Farah Nadia.
Faezah.
♥♥Fira Atika LOVES
Fira.
Frederick Hornyhead :]

Gay.
♥Glenda.
Gurjeet LOVES

Hakim.
♥Hannah LOVES
Hannan.
♥♥Hani LOVES
Hayyu.
♥Huimin LOVES

♥Kak Ifaa
♥♥Ika LOVES
♥Ina

Jun Wei.

♥♥Khai SUAVE
Khairiyah.
Khamisah.
Khadijah.

Lala Lofva.

♥Mardhiah LOVES
Mardhiah.
Mary.
Musliha.

♥Nad Kacang.
Nadya.
♥Nana Tiyestic
♥♥Nani BSF
♥Kak Nora.
Nurbaya.
♥♥Nurul Syak LOVES
♥Nunubell.

Phyque.

Rachael.
Rahman.
Rasis.

Salihan.
♥Sarah DARLA
Saniy.
♥ Serene
♥Shashabell
♥Syafiqah.

♥♥Syam BFFL
♥Syaza.
♥♥Syiqin LOVES

♥♥Taufik LOVES

♥Ully LOVES

Venice.

Wei Jie.
Wei Sian.
Wynna.

♥♥Yat LOVES
♥Ying Jie.

♥ZA :D
Zakiah.
Zarifah.
♥Zolyn
ZulFattah.


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Friday, July 3, 2009, 2:16 PM
Remembering the girl leaves me down and lonely.

So you sailed away, into a grey-sky morning.

Why can't Blogger upload photos?! Urgh.

I'm skeptical. I'm skeptical about the reason why I exist.

Today, we had P.E and yet again, we had games elective. At first, I was excited about choosing badminton because I like that sport. But there were too many participants, so I ditched that idea. Then my friends joined floorball, but Girlf and I joined mini-tennis. Then we made the first move to join Folk dance instead. I know. It sounds so goddamn boring and corny, but hey - it is our last year in this school. So the rest followed us, too. We didn't do anything today though, as there wasn't enough time.

SINGAPORE HAS BEEN LISTED AS AN H1N1-AFFECTED COUNTRY! :O

I have to stop being complacent and change for my own good. ):

whatsername♥
But it's your fault.

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♥ And you'll go away, but like karma, you'll come back.


Tuesday, June 30, 2009, 3:15 PM
Say love.

I don't wanna think about all the things that never were.

I'm sick and tired of everything. How could I be so stupid to think that everything will eventually pass? You're demanding too much of me, too much of what I can't give. I thought that things will change. But apparently, change is too much for me to ask. Honestly, why can't you just fucking leave me alone?

Please. It's all I ask of you.

whatsername♥
Fat chance.

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Sunday, June 28, 2009, 3:17 PM
Don't be that way,

I don't believe you.

Just came back from the pasar malam with Azari. Came back from madrasah and attempted to call BFFL but apparently she misplaced her cell phone. -.-" Then called Azari and went to buy lunch with him. Man it's friggin' hot. :/

So. I'm facing the computer, sipping blueberry juice, chatting with BFFL, Alex and Jane. Also playing MSN games with Azari, and bitching about secondary school teachers. Though it's been a few years since he's been to school, haha.

Poor BSF, she wasn't feeling well today. She has lost her voice and now she sounds like a dying sheep. Haha! She said it herself. :P

Thanks BSF, Shima (and Izz) for following me meet that nyonya just now, hahahaha.

I miss missing you.

whatsername♥
But there's nothing,

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009, 7:56 PM
Denial.

Change in life is hard when what you have had all your life is all you ever will have.

Okay people, I'M BACK from kampung. :) It was two and a half days of hell fun! I reached home at around 4 pm today, and gosh am I exhausted. Well, let's start with the stories.

This morning, I was feeding Baby Haziq with instant noodles whilst Sun held him. We then took refuge in the Kenari car parked outside the house when A'iq was irritating us like shit. I was about to feed Baby when suddenly Sun shouted as he leaned to the front of the car. I was thinking, "Why on Earth is this bulldog screaming?!" Then, I saw a friggin' black chicken on the dashboard of the car. What the hell sial! Hahahaha. It was flapping its wings frantically and we kept screaming incessantly.

Baby cried in fear and shock as we were just screaming and screaming and screaming. I tried to open the door on my right but I was shaking too vigorously and couldn't do it. Sun then opened the door on the other side and we scrambled out of the car. We were still shaking and screaming as Tok Muk asked us what happened through the kitchen window. We laughed like hell and explained to her whilst coaxing Baby, who was crying. Haha, damn cute.

The fucking thing is, when A'iq went inside the car less than three minutes later, he found a chicken egg inside. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. XD

Here's a picture of the car:



Okay, so.


His name is Iman, I think. My Nyai's best friend's (sitting at the back there) grandson. I bought him that jelly, but it turns out he doesn't know how to eat it. -.- So he just sucked it, hahah.




Isn't Baby just so cuuute? :)




Awww! Baby and my hoodie. :)

So, since Baby kept tagging with Sun, A'iq kept following me around. He's cute, but quite violent. -.-" Reminds me of anyone much? The twin brats! Sheesh. Anyway.


Hahah. Sorry for the bad quality - I didn't activate the flash then. Otherwise, you would have been able to see the spot of talcum powder on his right cheek. Haha!

In the morning, I was slapping talcum powder on my face and accidentally took too much. So, I ran to the dining hall and wiped some on A'iq's face. Hahah! He was shocked as he was eating then. He chased me to the room and looked at me quizzically without saying anything and I gave him a big fat kiss. :D He protects me from animals, anyway. Hahah.


Hahaha! This is really hilarious. That's Ngah in the helmet. Baby is apparently scared of helmets, and he was crying 'cause he wanted to follow us for a car ride to somewhere. So Ngah frightened him. Hahaha, doesn't he look like a spaceman? XD

I think that's enough for now. :) Basically, I had an awesome time and I love A'iq and the way he looked at me when I told him I was going home and how we always shouted at each other, also the way he tended to kick me when we slept at night. Gosh I miss him already.

whatsername♥
and you know it.

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Friday, June 19, 2009, 2:04 PM
I'm in, I'm in a daze

It's easy to tear apart what's been built, but how do you decide what to put in its place?


Budak ni kan, dah maju tau. =D

It's scorching hot eh! Sheesh. Chatting with Shafiq right now. It's been a long time since I've heard from him! Anyway, I'm fucking hungry seh. Even though I have just finished eating, pfft. See, having a big appetite isn't really very good.

Anyway. I cried like a little girl last night. and today I have puffy eyes. ): Yes well, it's part and parcel of living a miserable life. I have, in fact, gotten used to it. =D

Shafiq says officer course is fun. He's the first (and may I predict the last,) person I have and will ever know(n) to say that. :O

This is another random post, by the way.

Chatting with Nizar. Waaah, damn dirty. But fun. :D

Byebyeeeeeeeee! Going off to kampung next week. Weeheeee!

Please let me go,
just let me go.

whatsername♥
Pointless.

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Wednesday, June 17, 2009, 12:32 PM
I don't want

People change. The question is, do we continue loving them for who they were, or for who they have become?

I'm getting tired. Can't you friggin' see that? Oh I'm sure you're not that oblivious. Come on, be realistic!

Just got home from ML oral lecture class. Tomorrow will be our individual practice. Urgh, I'm so exhausted uh! Gaaah. You know what? I've been missing Aishah even more this few days. )': I LOVE YOU SIOL AISHAH!

Anyway thanks BFFL for that thing this morning. Haha, I dare not write it here. But it has to do with Gopal. ;)

Okay random post, pfft.

whatsername♥
I'm not your dog.

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Tuesday, June 16, 2009, 12:23 PM
and I

Oh how we regret the things we say, and those we never had the courage to.

Chatting with Jerry right now. Man, we're being so melodramatically emotional about Le Roy being the apparent "evil mastermind" to force him to learn the Hoedown Throwdown. I know. I can't blame Jerry. Who in their right mind actually likes Hannah Montana, at this mature age? I know a bunch of people who would form an anti-Hannah Montana club if there was an opportunity (or an actual need to). I have no real idea why we dislike her, really. It just comes naturally (-.-). Nothing personal though. :)

The traffic police outside my house are contributing to the noise pollution! Sheesh.

Well Abu has, finally, loaned a library book for me. It's the one I've been waiting for - The Likeness by Tana French. It's sort of like a sequel for the previous In The Woods. This book is friggin' awesome, it's killing me! I sound so much like a geek! Haha. But of course, when it comes to novels, I am nothing but a slave. :D

whatsername♥
Be afraid.

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